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PLAYER↴ Name: Serey Contact: kouject / the2ndhunter@gmail.com Other Characters: N/A CHARACTER↴ Character Name: Doll Age: 17ish (A side-chapter tells the story of when Doll's first tooth came out, which apparently happens in small humans around age 6 or 7. Joker remarks the story took place ten years ago. Doll also refers to Ciel as "just a child", so she must be old enough to classify a 12-year-old as such.) Species: Human Canon: Kuroshitsuji Canon Point: Moments before her death Character Info: http://kuroshitsuji.wikia.com/wiki/Doll Personality: Doll's early childhood was extremely rough, though you wouldn't know it from the way she behaves during the main story. Not very much is known for certain about where she was before she found her family with Joker, Beast, Dagger, Jumbo, Wendy and Peter, but it's said that she was 'raised too harshly' and has a very conspicuous burn over her left eye. This leads me to believe that Doll's parents abused her, maybe punished her very harshly for mistakes children make, and probably burned her intentionally. No doubt this childhood abuse became normalized for her, and the only way she got out was by being "adopted" away from her parents by Joker and the rest. And she loves them immediately. Life is hard, but Doll always seems to be smiling and optimistic when she's not clinging physically to one of her family. When she's little and loses her first tooth, she's incredibly excited because it means she's going to get money from the tooth fairy-- and then she'll buy bread for the family with it. Even after being very harshly abused, Doll is still willing to trust her new family and share whatever she can with them out of genuine love. She loves them so much and wants so badly for them to all be okay, that when she wakes up and finds the money, she tries to pull out more of her teeth so they can all have more bread... It made sense when she was six, okay okay. This intense optimism and innocence continues into Doll's teenage years. In canon, she's always pictured smiling, trying to help Ciel adjust to life with the circus, and sharing her food and rare treats with him. She is genuinely friendly and very outgoing despite her extremely rough start, and no doubt this can be attributed to how her family fiercely tried to protect what little was left of her childhood. During the tooth fairy incident, everyone else in their family knows there's no tooth fairy, but Doll believes it and they all work to maintain her innocence on the matter instead of flat-out telling her no money is going to be under her pillow. This sense of innocence and naivete ultimately comes back to bite Doll, when it's revealed that Ciel lied to her over and over again and she never questioned him-- even when she catches him poking around the first-string tents. Ciel lies and tells her he was trying to steal things (instead of investigating the circus) and she shrugs it off and sympathizes with him instead of telling the rest of the circus. She takes people at face-value and trusts them probably because she was never exposed to lies or betrayal. Her family protected her from it too efficiently. Her reaction at the end of the Circus arc, when Ciel and Sebastian confirm that they've lied to her and killed her family, is initially shock and disbelief. She falls to her knees, physically stunned that she's been played from the moment she befriended Ciel. Once the reality that she's lost her entire family grips her, her reaction is rash and physical. Doll charges at Ciel with a knife, screaming that she won't forgive him, and of course given she has no combat skill at all, Sebastian kills her easily. Doll isn't crafty or conniving, or even smart when it comes to her family and her feelings. She cares about people, she loves deeply, wants everyone to be her friend, and it's hard for her to imagine people lying or betraying until it's actually happening to her. Even though one of her defining characteristics is innocence, Doll still grew up on the East End streets. To a certain extent, she still knows how the world works. She knows the harshness of being hungry and homeless, and she probably knew that her brothers and sisters broke the law to keep them fed. Still, she probably views these as "necessary evils" in order to ensure their survival. She idolizes Joker and the rest of their family, so if they say it's okay, she probably goes right along with it. But while the lessons of the street stay with her even at the circus, she does chastise Ciel for stealing and tells him not to do it again, so she clearly re-orients her moral compass once she's gainfully employed. While Joker is doing horrific things to keep them all safe and the rest of the family is aware of the darker side of their lives, Doll is kept away from it and can truly consider her life in the circus as separate from her life on the streets. She wouldn't readily return to being a pickpocket unless she absolutely had to, but she can understand why someone would have to do it and wouldn't judge them for it. Doll is also very easy-going and friendly-- traits Joker displayed that she no doubt tried to emulate. She's always smiling (when she's not in her performance persona), she immediately offers a friendly hand and a smile to Ciel after they meet, and tells him that if he has any questions he can ask her. Ciel probably isn't a special case, Doll no doubt does this for everybody she doesn't know just because she likes being helpful and wants to make friends with everyone. She's definitely not shy in any sense of the word either-- when Ciel figures out that the elegantly dressed tightrope walker Doll and his seemingly-male bunkmate are the same person, Doll proves she's a girl by grabbing Ciel's hand and squishing it against her chest, also teasing that he can take a peek "downstairs" if he doesn't believe her. It's not a sexual moment at all, it's more like we're watching a kid trying to prove something by lifting her skirt. Again, it's probably a product of her innocence and the way her family raised her. She jokes about this stuff, but sex and relationships are definitely not things that are on her radar. That probably makes it even easier for her to make those jokes and get a rise out of prim and proper Ciel. Perhaps the only thing Doll seems to think too much about is her face. Her scar clearly causes her a lot of image issues, considering she's intentionally grown her hair long enough on one side to cover it and her performance costume is designed to cover the scar as well. When Joker is giving the family new circus names, she says that "Doll" doesn't fit her because of her face-- she doesn't think she's pretty enough to be called by a name that signifies perfection and beauty. She apparently gives in when Joker explains that it's because she's "their precious Doll", and clearly if the name says something about her relationship to her family, it's fine and dandy. But she's still self-conscious enough to keep covering her burn and ruined eye. Doll does like to perform at the circus, but it seems that the most important thing to her is her family. The circus is just a means to keep them all together and keep their lives going, instead of her primary focus in life. She happily takes care of other things around the circus, such as peeling potatoes or helping Ciel take a bath, when she's not performing while the other first-string members seem to be solely focused on their performance. She's clearly more excited about living with her family than she is about being in a circus, though it's clearly a comfortable and familiar life. Her family will always come first. Abilities: Exceptional balance and flexibility/Acrobatics: Doll was a first-string member of the Noah's Ark Circus as their tightrope walker. While performing, she's pictured to be calm and in control of her movement, performing jumps and splits on the rope without a net. The fact that she does this without any safety precautions-- and her family lets her-- says a lot about how accomplished she is. Adorableness: No, wait, come back, it's not a joke....... Maybe a little. Yeah, Doll is ridiculously easy to get along with. When she's in her performance persona, she appears cold and aloof, but it's really all part of her act. Doll is easy going and hyper-friendly. She takes to Ciel almost immediately, sharing her breakfast when he doesn't get enough to eat, and sleeping in his bed with him when he's sick. It could be argued that Doll goes through life never assuming anyone is out to hurt other people, and always wanting to believe the best about them. Could be slightly alarming for anybody who's used to being seen as a bad guy. Androgyny: Okay maybe this is a joke now. But yeah, she's mistaken for a boy at first without her really trying??? When Ciel realizes Doll is his roommate, he leaps out with major Sherlock-level deduction and points out that his roommate is a guy. Doll calls him rude, and says she's obviously a girl. So either Ciel really sucks at playing the Guess My Gender game, or Doll really is just that androgynous when she's not in a frilly carnival costume. CARNIVAL↴ Soul Colour: Pale yellow Ideal Jobs: Acrobat, makeup, or line cook-- ideally she'd take on two jobs like she did at Noah's Ark, a performing job and a more labor-oriented job. Relevant Experience: She was a first-string member of the Noah's Ark Circus as their highwire and acrobatic act; when she wasn't performing, she helped with a lot of daily camp life: peeling potatoes, helping others rehearse, etc. Reason for Joining: Joker, Joker, Joker-- Doll's family will always be the most important thing to her, so when she found out Joker was with the carnival nothing he said dissuaded her from wanting to join too. She wants to make sure he's okay, or at least try to make sure she doesn't lose him again. Plus she really doesn't have anywhere else to go so... any carnival in a storm. That isn't to say she doesn't want other things. Like Joker, she wants to ensure the safety of their family members and get them out of England, and she figures that if both she and Joker are working at it, the process will go twice as fast. She'd like it if her family was her top contract, however Joker made her promise that her first deal would be to learn some kind of magic that would get her out of a tight spot. There's only so many times she can go against what Joker tells her to do, so she agreed to it. SAMPLES↴ Doll & Joker on the TD Meme Unused TD Meme Prompt: After everything, it seems fitting that the next thing she knows is the lights and sounds of a carnival. It was a place she'd found comfort and home in, after their struggle on the streets-- and even after everything that she'd found out about Smile and Black, it's still true. So when she's greeted by organ grinders and flashing electric lights instead of angels with harps and chorus, it's not a disappointment. It's familiar. Doll wanders around the grounds, looking for something-- someone, really. Several of them. Because as familiar as a circus is, it's still just a circus without her family. They had to be there, after all, there's no reason they wouldn't unless... unless Smile had lied to her. Again. And she was the only one who was dead... Panic gripped her for a moment and she turned suddenly into one of the attractions-- a Mirror Maze. Best to comb the entire carnival until she found them, after all, no stone unturned and all that. So she wanders through, looking at her own reflection nervously and keeping sharp for any sign of any of her brothers or sisters. Sometimes a flash of orange sends her running smack into one of the walls, or she turns around happily to find the glimpse of a large man standing behind her was her eyes playing tricks. The glimpses start to become less of a figment of her imagination the longer she walks with her hands against the walls. Coming in here was a mistake, something is very wrong, the mirrors aren't just mirrors. And that thought is made certain when she turns a corner and her reflection is still her-- but in her performance costume. The reflection smiles, cold. If you're in heaven, where's your other eye, precious Doll? She buries her eyes in her elbow, and starts feeling along the walls again with one hand. What she can't see won't hurt her, can it? This isn't right, this isn't where she should be, this is a nightmare she's having-- "Help!! Help, somebody get me out!"